白板报

事隔三个月之后，我终于又可以骑车了。

10月10日晚上10点左右，在北山路接近白堤的地方，我酒后骑车撞到马路牙子上，人横飞出去。造成右臂肱骨大结节撕脱性骨折，额头鲜血直流。从此之后，那里的一座桥就取名叫断桥。两个陌生的好心人把我扶起，并为我叫了出租车。月小刀闻讯火速杀到医院，在急诊帮我料理一切。从此开始了我两个多月的残疾人生涯。

如今我已完全恢复，不幸的是，月小刀同学却步我后尘，脚部骨折，现在正在家里修养。而我至今还没有去看望过他，想想很惭愧。

当时，为了不让亲人担心（我小妹妹会看我的博，然后把重大事项汇报给我妈），我一直没有在BLOG上说这事，但是心里是在憋不住，就用英文记下了当时的感受，贴到我一个废弃的博上，叫《断臂的日子》The Arm-broken Days

今天骑车意味着我的骨折完全痊愈，也意味着我可以开始过新的日子。为此我许了三个09年愿望：

1、没有担忧，没有挂虑。
2、做最想的，要最好的。
3、关心他人，重诺守信。

它们一定要都实现！

The Arm-broken Days

Chapter One

If something is doomed to happen, nothing could stop it.

When I hurried riding on my bike and thrusting to the restaurent located in the Quyuanfenghe park near the West Lake. I knew clearly that I would be drunk. Besides, I knew that I would come back by bicycle.

Everything is neatly planed. The banquet was very luxious which costed 5000 yuan per table. The guests were very happy. We drank a lot of imported wine. And finally I was drunk.

Generally, when I drink with my friends, classmates or lovers, I don’t need to worry about anything. They will take care of me, laying me down on the bed, carrying me on the back, and sitting by my side to watch me sleeping soundly.

But this time is different. There were so many acquitance, but no friens, none. So after the dinner, when I said goodbye to all the colleagues, they didn’t care about what kind of vehicle I was going to take. As a consquence, I was uncovered by any shelter of friendship even though I was very drunk.

I remembered that I sat on a bench of the park in darkness, shouting, and maybe singing. But no one looked after me. I was exposed in the danger of the nature.

I found my bike near the gate of the park. The bike is quite new and strong enough to carry two heavy men like me. The rest is noise which I only remembered very vaguely. I speeded up along the Beishan Road, like a lamb rushing to the slaughter land.

In order to avoid cars I decided to change my route to the pavement. But I forgot one thing. The pavement is higher than the motorway, about 15cm higher. In my misty eyes and slumbering mind, I ignored the height and thought that the pavement and the motorway is on the same flat.

No sooner than that I tried to remedy this vital fault, I threw myself on the stone floor of the pavement. I must have murmured God after I found my forehead was bleeding. Terrible, terrible, most terrible, I could not stand up. I lost my consciousness.

Chapter Two

I don’t have much confidence of the goodness of my fellow Chinese. Indeed in a country where deception is everywhere and good will is often abused, you cannot rely upon someone like the Good Samarian. When my arms was grasped and my body was erected, I felt a little puzzled.

Two men, I remember clearly, kept asking me questions.

“Do you want a ambulance? “ they asked.“Yes, please.” I answered while trying to clean the blood in my eyes.

“Ambulance will charge you 200 yuan. Do you have enough money?” they kept asking.“Yes, I know and I have money.”

I heard they called the emergency call 120. “Hello,, we have a situation. A man hit himself on the ground and hurt badly. Would you please send an ambulance to Duanqiao?” Duanqiao, literally means a broken bridge.

At least ten minutes passed, the ambulance had not come. One man suggested that he would help me to park my bike on the parking site of a famous café nearby. I gladly agreed to this brilliant idea. Although I was still half unconscious, I understand well that this solution is the best. The café opens 24 hours per day. Parking outside it is safe enough.

The expensive ambulance hadn’t come. We got impatient. Finally, someone of us suggested to take a taxi to the hospital directly. My two patrons called 120 again to cancel the order which is a necessary step in this situation, otherwise, they will charge the caller according to the mobile phone number recorded in their system.

Obviously my head is covered with blood. I didn’t know why the taxi driver would like take me to the hospital and I couldn’t remember if I had paid him or not. The next scene in my memory is that I called one of my intimate friend Xiaodao to go to the hospital. You should have several buddies in a big city who will take care of you at any time when you suddenly becomes invulnerable.

If you don’t have a helping hand, to walk into the emergency clinic would be a disaster at night. Countless paper work and billing work will drive you walk continuously from one unit to another. Even a healthy person will exhaust. When Xiaodao came, I felt fully relaxed. He did all the painful procedures for me. What I had to do is resting on the bench, lying down on the operation bed, and stretching my arm under the X-ray.

The situation was more critical than I thought. Not only my forehead was hurt so badly that needed a sewing operation, but also my upper arm was broken, which meant I became a handicap man.

Xiaodao was so kind that he courted me back to my flat. He said:” I will accompany you all the night. I have the permission of my fiancé.”

I said, “No, you have done enough. Please go back and don’t worry about me. I can take care of myself.”

In the midnight, I woke up and felt painful on my right arm. I knew that hard times had started in my life.

【按】新年都喜欢许心愿，而BBC说这样只会增加挫败感。最简单的办法是多运动，多学习，多做好事，一句话，多亲近人类和大自然。

新年到来，不少人都会信誓旦旦地为自己立下新的志向。但最新研究却说，新年立志对身体造成的影响弊大于益。

英国致力于改善人们心理健康的慈善组织Mind指出，人们应该摒弃新年新气象的固有思想，因为过多的雄心壮志和一脉豪情，只能给人体大脑增加不必要的负担！

此话怎讲？这家慈善组织说，随着新年的到来，人们往往会敦促自己实现减肥计划或者跳槽方案。但事实上，这样做只会给自己造成更大的心理负担，比如常抱怨自己体型不好、或是担心自己成为公司下一轮裁员的牺牲品。

更严重的是，一旦新年愿景没能实现，人们将产生更大的挫败感和自责感。

慈善团体负责人保罗•法尔莫（Paul Farmer）说，人们对自身存在问题的关注和由此引发的不安全感，都会导致人们感到郁闷、绝望、没有自信、一败涂地，甚至不可救药。

他说：“人们往往通过自我惩罚来改变自己身上的一些缺点和问题，因此当我们不能实现自己在新年伊始立下的雄心壮志时，就不可避免的会产生比已开始更糟糕的负面情绪。”

“在2009年，与其信誓旦旦给自己树立太多目标，还不如好好为自己做一个近期规划，想想看那些事情是比较容易实现的。”

为了帮助大家在新年里实现自己的“宏图伟业”，该组织还为大家提出了几条既能保护身心，又简便易行的建议：

* 多做运动 — 运动能让人们体内产生一种叫做内啡肽（endorphins）的荷尔蒙。这些荷尔蒙能让人感到心情愉快、精神焕发；
* 亲近大自然 — 亲近自然也能改善情绪；
* 接触新事物、学习新知识 — 有助于刺激大脑、提高自信；
* 多做义工 — 帮助别人、陶冶自己、利人利己。

今天看了《非诚勿扰》，自从《手机》之后，冯小刚的电影真诚了许多，《非》中，除了狗尾续貂的邮轮那一节，已经没有了为搞笑而搞笑的桥段，欢愉之后是悲伤，调笑是为了更加沧桑。

葛优扮演的秦奋是这样一个人。别人的沧桑写在脸上，他的沧桑也写在心里。像他这样的人错过了大半个世界。迫于内外的压力，他追求一般人眼中的正常生活，然而这个荒诞的时代，男女关系也必然是荒诞的。对于这样的老男人，我有一首分行的散文要献给他。

要找就找一个老一点的男人
40多岁，青春像鹌鹑一样没有尾巴
他会拉着你的手整夜说话
还会对着酒杯朗诵简爱的配音
他的目光像夕阳
从你瀑布一样头发上飞流之下
但至多只到肩头
I can go no further
有时候他的手放到你大腿上
那动作自然得
像水手把手伸向缆绳
你千万不要过渡反应
因为那是一颗不带弹头的火箭
青春处处是雷区
留下一截截假肢
荷尔蒙已经蒸发殆尽
但这并不说明你绝对安全
因为老男人的心思深不可测
有多少船舶沉没

终于有天，不可思议的事情出现了。从旧的发黄的日子里，她突然出现，并非仙女，也不是白纸一张，她来到你面前，带着全部的生活和涂鸦。生命甜蜜，爱情甘美，需要付出比做奴隶更大的代价来换取。奇迹都是骗人的，浪漫也只是个童话，面对疼痛的现实，是当事者的死寂，唯一能听到的是好友的恸哭。可以想象，《非诚勿扰》在秦奋朋友的歌声和哭声中结束，对冯小刚来说是个巨大的诱惑。可是，商业片导演要学会克制自己的情感，为大多数审美情趣不高的观众考虑，于是又有了邮轮上的一幕。

跟冯小刚以往的作品不同，《非诚勿扰》是一部很精巧和细微的电影，我个人最喜欢的段落是：小白的故事，与徐若萱相亲，四姑娘酒居屋，开车大哭。有这四段戏，这部电影就稳稳立住了。

牟老曾经在博客里祝《非诚勿扰》票房达到5亿，我祝冯小刚明年再拍出一部票房过10亿的片子。

这是一首20年前唱过的歌，物是人非，依稀记得当年的情景。

树叶上还挂着雨滴，空中弥漫着潮湿的气息。孤零零的路灯将银白的光投射在路面上，静得只听到雨水的“滴答滴答”。忽然，空中传来“滋滋拉拉”的噪音，几秒钟后，一个清澈的女声响起。
　　
　　“同学们，再过半个小时，１９８８年就要过去，崭新的１９８９年就要来临了。……　　
　　下面，把费玉清的这首《珍惜来临的一年》奉献给大家，千言万语都在歌中！”

　　有人说岁月太匆促，转眼又一年从手掌中溜走。
　　是不是没有做什么，就这样让时光留不住？
　　年轻的岁月也许不曾感觉，生命是如此短促。
　　如果你期待有收获，不要犹豫，不要错过。
　　过去的岁月已不会再回头，未来的路仍然要走。
　　在新的一年来临的时候，请你接受这一份祝福。

请听这首《珍惜来临的一年》

俄罗斯LUBE乐队

歌词大意：

缓缓的温柔的哀伤
深沉的俄罗斯母亲大地上的教堂
晨雾中薄薄的钟声抚过脸庞
呼唤我,呼唤我薄薄的哀伤
在那层层扬起尘埃的道路上
呼唤我,呼唤我痴痴的哀伤
藏在蓝色新月后面的城市
是丁香花和葡萄的故乡
紫色的汁液飘荡着紫色的丁香花香
无边无际的流淌
呼唤我,呼唤我无法哭泣的哀伤
啊,钟声已飘荡到遥远的远方
远方有呼唤我名字的人
不真切的呼唤着我
在远离誓言的地方
在那没有相见的远方
黄色的暮霭拥抱小小的车站
来自远方的车列走走停停
太久的别离
无法隐藏
呼唤我,呼唤我,在这立下誓言的地方
呼唤着我们终将再见
在这立下誓言的地方
明日,明日不再有远方